Albany High School
it begins with blindness: the indistinguishable swarm of
sun and dark your enemies swaddling chrysanthemums
across the darkest plumes of your body. by your face: a
hand struck with hope, a garage of pulleys and medicine,
a mother and a father who call you by a name until the
doves whittle sky-thin. They are moondust. They are catalyst.
Wherever you wander, you will return to those faces:
in the mirror, father is waiting on the bridge by the pond
father is waiting without books in his hand father is by
his desk again creating life with a pipe & some smoke,
evaporating blood through his palms into your throat.
can you believe in river? that in moments desperate
enough, your blood will suffice as wings? you learn the
names of trees to understand his kind of wisdom:
acacia thin, hemlock wild. you visit his god, drape
his angels over your eyes, and learn the steady nature
of violence. when the snow came in torrents, you
reached for his hand only to find an empty salve: the ice un-
peeling to river, water-blood warming you to safety,
love in fragments too small to hold
This poem weaves together its narrative like an ancient tapestry: complex, textured, and accented with threads of gold that you don't even notice until you've tilted your head a hundred times, side to side and back again.
ABOUT THE AUTHOR
Cindy Xin attends Albany High School in Albany, California and is graduating in 2020. When she's not reading or writing, she enjoys taking walks alone around the city.